This would probably be a very spiritual post, so yah.


Today's service was.... exhilerating?
Pastor probably talked about a topic that you wouldn't have even heard of in other churches.

Sex.

Anyway, throughout the whole service, it was funny because Pastor kept cracking jokes and I kept laughing. Even though the topic was about sex, I knew and I knew that God was telling me something else.

I know that I have been staying stagnant in my walk with God for a long long time, perhaps even taking a few steps backwards.
I never had the courage and reality to take up the first step towards God, because I am forever preoccupied with my own silly problems and my hectic life.
What I failed to notice is that my life is uncontrollable without the guidance of God. Not because he doesn't guides me, but it is because I always believe I could do it on my own.

Last year I was faithful in my bible reading and quiet time with God, even though I didn't really know how, and why, I did it because I wanted to experience the God that all my friends had, and I know that I had found Him.
My results were considered fantastic ( to me ), I had friends, I was able to conquer all my problems and difficulties and I learnt many knew things.
I was dependent on God!

This year I supposed I had gotten complacent, I started getting lazy and give stupid reasons and tried to push God away. I don't know, but i always have this feeling that i would not be able to experience the presence of God in my life.

But I know if I take one step towards God, God will take 10, 000 steps towards me.

And God reminded me of this today during service.
How? And at that timing why I had no idea.

But God, I took your hint. Thanks. (:

Don't feel upset with the things that is happening around you.
Don't feel dejected because of you're slipping grades.
Don't feel tired to continue shining for God.
Don't feel unsatisfied with what you have now.
Don't feel alone just because that's what it seems in school physically.
For greater is he who is in God, then he who is in the world.
Thank you Jesus for you're beautiful salvation.
Amen.

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I have decided that I will sleep on my airmattress from now on! (So long as my aunt doesn't keep it away.) It's comfy, it's soft and cozy!

Hurray to the air mattress! :D

Right now I am starving, but I'm too lazy to step out for some food. ):
I guess I'll go play audition or something.
Haah.